I am not thrilled with all of the change right now. Sassafras and Sonic aren’t either.
A friend who put her house on the market sold her house within two weeks (TWO WEEKS!). She will not know the insanity of trying to keep up the madness of selling a house for over eight months.
Sassafras has started Middle School and both big kids have started a co-op for the first time this year.
I am trying to balance all the things and find how God would use me at church. Terrified that He might make my small things big, I’m scared that life will change.
I don’t even know where I am going to live when the house sells. This season might excite others, but for me IT’S AWFUL.
I don’t want to give up my house. Never dreaming of a larger house or another side of town, I am fearful of change.
So I sit here typing words on a screen praying no one ever sees them. Not because I am ashamed or think they are worthless, but because they may lead me out into the unknown, a place where change abides.
Then I read Malachi 3. It starts with refinement. What is purification without change? You cannot heat a substance to almost it’s ruin point, remove its impurities, and have no change at all.
The first five verses of this chapter are so rich I could camp out for days in all that I could learn from the purification and judgment of the Lord, but it is verse 6 after that pops out to me.
“For I the Lord do not change; therefore you, O children of Jacob, are not consumed.”
God has given each one of us a craving for consistency. Once again we look for it in the wrong place.
We try to find it in ourselves, the least reliable creatures on the planet.
Then we aim for holding tight to circumstances. Maybe they will give us the steadfast place in our hearts.
We sit there with the answer staring us right it the face. Of course, we seek steadiness… we seek HIM!
God didn’t scramble to figure out how to meet the needs of our hearts.
He didn’t say. “Hmmm… Christina doesn’t like change. I wonder how I should respond to that?”
In creation, God created land and sea before there were land and sea animals, and food and air before there were mouths and lungs. He was also unchanging before our hearts would ever cry out for a fixed point.
He did not say, “My people are hungry. I will find food.” Instead, He answered from His character, “I am satisfaction. Here is some hunger.”
He has hardwired us to seek Him and want Him.
I pray we that life will not consume us as we seek rest in our unchanging God.