The fear of leadership is not a lonely place. When entering this group you find many here. Some have grown old and wasted away in this room. Others merely visit from time to time. I am praying to be the latter.
I know that often I find that my fear of leadership is often in trying to make it something it is not.
Solomon simplified it in 1 Kings 3:8-9. “And your servant is in the midst of your people whom you have chosen, a great people, too many to be numbered or counted for multitude. Give your servant therefore an understanding mind to govern your people, that I may discern between good and evil, for who is able to govern this your great people?”
When leadership is put in its proper perspective it is less complicated, less heavy, and eventually less fearful.
I am struggling with all of it, and therefore some things I need to remind myself.
Solomon helps me realize three things that help with my fears.
Solomon showed me that it’s not my plan, it’s not my purpose, and it’s not my people.
I don’t have to know the steps. God’s got those.
I don’t have to know the outcome. God’s got that as well.
I’m not even ultimately responsible for the people. Yep! God’s business too.
Leadership simplified is just taking people where they need to go.
The fear is that I won’t do it right, that I will end up taking them to the wrong place, or that I will ruin the lives of those who follow.
If I believe that God has a plan, then I can merely align myself with it.
If I believe that God has a purpose, I can trust what my eyes don’t see in this season.
If I believe that people belong to God and that He is just using me for His purpose and plan, then I can keep pointing them in the direction He would have me point.
When I was a little girl and the teacher chose me for line leader, I walked according to the teacher’s plan, headed in the way of her purpose, and lead her people. As long as I kept my eyes on the one who put me in the position of leadership in the first place all was well. It was only when I got distracted, thought my way was better or paid more attention to the ones behind me instead of the one in front of me that I failed to lead people where they needed to go.
The path is not much different if I just follow my Leader.
Lord, help me to be comfortable in trusting your plan. Help me walk in the way of your purpose. Help me understand that anyone behind me belongs to you.